Race day is 13 days away.
Which means taper time….
Which means blogging
time to occupy my ‘I want to be training, not resting’ mind!!
I remember this time of year, last year, getting a text from
Coach T about considering
qualifying for the Worlds 70.3 as a goal of mine for
2013.
Big goal… I’m game!
Reaching that goal in St George was amazing and the rest of
the summer has been all about training hard, racing smart, and learning lots to
lead me to a great race on September 8th.
Vegas is going to be very windy, and a lot hot,
and plenty hard. Championship race worthy... I think so! :) Tough courses make for tough athletes, right? I am such a numbers person… quantifying
everything is something I do without even thinking about it. NOT for this race. No time expectations going in. Don’t get me wrong, I want to have a fabulous
race, but my #1 goal is to leave everything I have on that course. I am so excited to race with some talented ladies and all I want, is to cross that finish line feeling absolutely spent.
.......
This time of year is also when I decided to change my life. Two years ago I committed to
letting go of an awful lifestyle and began ‘Building My Machine.’ Recently, I finally feel like I have gotten
to a point that I am not ashamed or held back by that past ‘life.’ A couple weeks ago at the gym, a young man I didn't know
asked me if I would talk to his mom about her weight issues since I have been
able to overcome mine. This was a real 'aha' moment for me. I have overcome them. I can admit to it without being
ashamed. I can help others now. Changing your life is freaking HARD no matter what
the adjustment you are making. You can have amazing support like my dad, coach, and cousin but that doesn't simplify the change. Throughout
the two years I was always teetering back and forth, so owning my new ‘changed’ life
never seemed honest and genuine. But now,
NOW I feel like I have gotten to a point to use that weakness
as fuel instead of a weakness rendering me from my potential. Finding strength in that weakness, Akhilandeshvari! Fueling my fire within.
“If it isn’t
something that’s physically stopping you, then it’s mental.
So, is your mind
going to be your weapon or weakness?”
You better bet that fuel will be my weapon in Vegas!
It takes a lot of courage and strength to make a change and feel comfortable in your skin. I remember our first conversation on the phone...a quiet, intimidated voice, wanting help but not sure about the whole process. I now hear a confident, eager, and accepting voice, excited about each day! Super proud of you on and off the field! xoxo
ReplyDeleteYour transformation is inspiring. You might consider speaking about it to support groups for those still struggling with the same issue. You are a great example of what people can do with will power.
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ReplyDeleteJust came across your blog. Amazing transformation :-)May your journey reward you richly for having the courage to do it. Keep inspiring! You story can heal others!
ReplyDeleteJust came across your blog. Amazing transformation :-)May your journey reward you richly for having the courage to do it. Keep inspiring! You story can heal others!
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